Alone
A Poem
I’m better off alone, without the love
the pain and the feeling of hurt all the time.
I’m better being alone, without the friends
the laughter and the feeling of enjoyment sometimes.
I’m alone from the moment I wake up in the morning,
And I’m alone from the second I fall asleep in the evening.
No money, no meaningless sex, no drugs and no alcohol
can make me forget this loneliness that has become me.
I’m always alone, even when I’m with people
they laugh they smile and talk
and I am somehow invisible and consumed in my own silence.
It's the silence that has become me.
The sound of my crying in the dead of the night,
the sound of me holding back tears, nobody
there to hold me tight.
I’m better off alone, I say and think.
Walls are built high,
nobody can destroy it.
But inside these walls, my demons attack me and rip me apart.
Alone with them,
Alone with me.
